Time Changes Everything
Steve froze with his hand on the door handle. Did he hear her correctly, he asked himself. Did she just say she was pregnant? He turned to face Mia and looked her in the eyes as he asked her,
“Did I hear you right? Did you just say you were pregnant?”
She instantly sobered. Mia knew she couldn’t stop now even if she wanted to. She was tired of pretending not to care, of not knowing why he did what he did. She wanted answers and Steve was going to give them to her.
“The day after you left, I went looking for you after school when you never showed up to class,” she said as she wiped away the lone tear that fell from her eye. “I thought you were sick or something. Your dad answered the door and I could immediately tell something was not right by his grim expression upon seeing me on his doorstep.”
“Hello Mia. What a surprise,” greeted John McGarrett as he motioned for Mia to come in. “Shouldn’t you be at work?” he said as he looked at his watch.
“Yeah I know, it’s just that Steve wasn’t at school today and I got worried. He never misses class. Is he sick?” she asked as she looked around the house for a sign of Steve.
“No he’s not sick and he’s not home either,” answered Steve’s dad as he placed his hands in his pockets. “Listen Mia, you might want to sit down for this,” he motioned to the sofa and once she was seated, he took a seat on the coffee table right in front of her. “Steve’s gone. He should be landing on the mainland as we speak.”
Mia was confused. Why would Steve be in the mainland? Why did he leave without a word to her? Facing John, she asked, “What do you mean? Steve can’t be in the mainland. He didn’t mention anything to me. Why would he leave Hawaii?”
“He didn’t leave on his own volition Mia. I had to send him and MaryAnn away from Hawaii. It’s not safe for them here. I recently discovered that my wife’s death wasn’t accidental. She was killed.”
“Oh my god,” she gasped as she placed her right hand on her lips. “I’m so sorry Mr. McGarrett. Who would do something so cruel to Mrs. McGarrett?” asked Mia with tears in her eyes. “She’d never hurt anyone intentionally.”
John placed both hands on top of Mia’s and said, “That’s what I’m trying to find out. In the meantime, my kids cannot be on this island. That’s why I placed them on the first flight out of here last night. I promised Steve I would fill you in on what happened and why he didn’t have time to contact you.”
“Mr. McGarrett, I understand, I really do, but I have to talk to Steve. It’s really important that I do. He has to know what I just found out. Please give me a number where I can contact him or an address where I can write to him,” pleaded a very distraught Mia.
“I’m sorry Mia, I can’t do that. For my children’s safety I can’t tell you where either of them are,” answered John looking at Mia with an apologetic expression. “But if you want you can tell me. Maybe I can help you.”
Mia stood up and moved away from John. She began pacing the length of the living room, debating on whether or not to tell John the news that she was pregnant with Steve’s baby. He would be really disappointed. They were only sixteen and fifteen. Too young to become parents, but she had to tell someone. She couldn’t keep it to herself any longer. She was terrified, so mustering all the courage she possessed, she took a deep breath and said, “I’m pregnant.”
“I’m sorry I think with my old age I’m starting to hear things,” he said with a small laugh as he stood up and turned to face Mia. “I thought I’d just heard you say you were pregnant, which can’t be true.” But when he looked up for a confirmation that he heard wrong, her tears confirmed he had not heard her wrong nor was he imagining things.
“I’m so sorry,” cried Mia as she covered her sobs with her hands. “I’m so so sorry.”
The next thing she knew, she felt two strong arms embrace her. She cried it out for about five minutes and once she began to calm down, John released her and led her to the couch so she could sit down.
John was pacing the living room trying to grasp the idea that his sixteen year old son had just gotten his fifteen year old girlfriend pregnant.”God, you’re only fifteen. You’re just a kid! Steve and you have your whole lives ahead of you. What were you guys thinking?” he asked. He snorted and scratched his forehead, “You kids probably weren’t even thinking.”
“Steve has to know. I’m terrified; I can’t do this on my own. I don’t know what to do.”
“Alright, let’s calm down,” he said sitting next to Mia and patting her hand. “I’ll contact Steve and let him know what’s going on. Then we’ll go on from there.”
Two days later…
Mia was closing up the shop she worked at when she heard someone call her. She turned to find Steve’s dad on the doorway.
“Hi Mia. I’m here to give you a ride home, and to talk to you,” he stated.
Mia noticed his serious tone and nodded, “Yeah, okay, let me just finish up here. Give me five minutes please.”
John nodded and told her he’d be right outside waiting for her.
During the ride to Mia’s house, both passengers were quiet. Mia was becoming anxious and couldn’t take the silence any more, so as soon as they pulled up in front of her house she turned in her seat and asked John if he had talked to Steve.
John nodded took a deep breath and told her, “I’m sorry Mia.” Turning to look her in the eyes he said to her, “Steve wants nothing to do with the baby.”
*end of flashback*
When Mia was finished telling Steve what had happened, she was on the floor with her head down in tears. Then she looked up with tears streaming down her face and faced Steve.
“That can’t be true,” said Steve, in a state of disbelief, refusing to acknowledge what his father had done to Mia, to him.
“Why are you acting so shocked, huh Steve. You knew all of this already. Your father told you I was pregnant with your child and yet you refused to man up to your responsibility.”
Steve refused to believe what Mia was telling him. His eyes were red with unshed tears as he got down on the floor and grabbed Mia from the shoulders. “You’re lying. You’ve got to be lying,” he choked out as he shook her. “My father, the man I knew, would’ve never done something like that, something so cruel like keeping me away from my child.”
“Stop lying! Stop acting like you didn’t know anything!” she yelled as she pushed him away and got to her feet, “You knew about it all. He looked me in the eyes as he told me you wanted nothing to do with the baby and me! Why would he have lied Steve?! Answer me!”
“I swear to you, Mia, I had no idea about any of this,” he choked out as he stood up to face her. “If I’d known I was going to be a father, I would have gotten on the first plane back home. I would’ve never left you alone with any of that. You’ve got to know that’s true. I don’t know why he lied, honestly I have no idea.”
“Well either he lied, or you’re the one lying to me,” Mia spoke with clenched teeth.
“How do I know you’re not the one that’s lying, huh? Tell me,” demanded Steve, confused and angry for what he had just found out.
“Why would I lie about something like this Steve? I loved you and your family so much; I would never lie about your father that way. He was like the father I never had. I would never make up such story.”
“I don’t know Mia. Maybe that’s why you’re lying to me. You loved me so much you couldn’t fathom the idea of me leaving you. Maybe you’re still stuck on what we had that you can’t let go of the past.”
Mia didn’t even think twice after what she heard come out of Steve’s mouth. If she was upset before, now she was furious. She slapped Steve so hard across the face, leaving her hand print on his right cheek.
That hit took Steve by surprise. Maybe he had crossed the line, but he was confused and angry. He didn’t know what to believe. Maybe he did believe it and that wasn’t the problem. The problem was that he could not believe his father, the man he grew up to admire, could be so cruel. “I’m sorry. That was uncalled for. I just, I’m just very confused but if one thing I am certain about is that I had absolutely no idea about the baby.”
Mia looked into Steve’s eyes not knowing whether to believe him or not. But looking at how distressed he seemed to be, she couldn’t help but tell herself that maybe he was telling the truth. She was so confused, maybe even more than Steve.
“I don’t know what or who to believe anymore. This is all so confusing. Why would your dad lie, Steve? I thought he liked me. I never gave him any reason not too,” she weakly told him.
“I don’t know Mia; I’m as confused as you are. Something is not right.”
Mia nodded, agreeing with him that something was definitely not right, but she was exhausted, she didn’t want to talk about it any more. Before she could tell Steve that he should probably leave now, she heard him ask the question she’d been dreading all along.
“You said you ‘were pregnant’, what happened to the baby Mia?” he asked wanting to know where his child was at.
Mia shook her head back in forth, “I, I can’t do this now Steve. Please let it go.”
“Let it go, Mia?” asked an incredulous Steve. “You’re asking me to let it go after telling me I was going to be a father? Tell me what happened to it. I have every right to know where my child is.” He grabbed her once more from the arms and shook her once as he begged her to tell him what had happened to the baby, causing Mia to burst into tears once more.
Not looking him in the eyes she told him in between sobs, “I lost it.”
Steve immediately released her and took a step back as he heard her. “What do you mean you lost it?” he asked not wanting to believe the thoughts running through his head at all the different scenarios the simple response ‘I lost it’ could represent.
“I lost it Steve! There’s no baby!” she yelled at him.
“What? Did you,” he paused, took a deep breath and asked, “Did you get rid of it? Did you have an abortion?”
She quickly looked up to him and said, “I would never do that, Steve. Even though I was really young and in place to be a mother, I wanted the baby so much. I had a miscarriage.”
Steve didn’t know how to react to that. He reached out to her, pulled her towards him and hugged her. “I, wow, I’m sorry Mia. I’m sorry you had to go through all that alone. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you,” he whispered into her hair as he placed a small kiss on her head. “I can’t imagine what you must’ve gone through. Do you think you can tell me how it happened?”
Mia shook her head against his chest, “I can’t, Steve. It was an accident. Please don’t ask me to relive that moment. It just hurts too much.” She pulled away from give and wiped her tears as she turned her back on him. “I think you should go home now Steve. We both need time to process everything that just happened.”
Steve reluctantly nodded in agreement. He didn’t want to leave her alone after everything she had just told him. “Alright, but promise me you’ll get some rest. You need it.”
Mia nodded and he walked up her placed a kiss on her forehead, and left her apartment.