Time Changes Everything
Steve quietly walked into the room Mia was in and noticed she was sleeping. The curtains had been closed to keep the sunlight from coming in and allowing her to rest. He grabbed a chair and moved it close to the bed on her right side with his back to the window. Steve took hold of her right hand and slowly brought it to his lips to kiss it and then gently placed it back on the bed without removing his hand. He let his gaze wander around the room and then let it stop on the beeping monitors. He thought of how close they had come to losing their baby for a second time but Steve would make sure he did everything in his hands to prevent that from happening again. As he took in her pale complexion he noted how beautiful and peaceful she looked while sleeping despite her paleness. He could just stare at her forever and never get tired of it. He just loved her so much. A few minutes later Mia began to stir until she slowly opened her eyes and looked at him.
“Hey beautiful,” he greeted in a small voice.
“What happened?” she asked in a whisper as she looked around in confusion. Suddenly remembering something important she began to panic as she touched her stomach. “Steve, my baby?” she asked, the panic evident in her eyes.
“Shh, relax, you and the baby are both fine,” he quietly told her as he removed a few strands of hair from her forehead.
He felt her let out a breath as she finally relaxed.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. I panicked when I found out at Kelly’s birthday party but I wanted to be completely sure before I told you. The doctor barely confirmed it today,” she explained.
“Hey it’s okay. You can tell me all about it later when you’re feeling better. Right now you need to relax and rest. The doctor will be here later to see if she can discharge you. Now try to get some rest. I’ll be right here,” he said as he leaned over and kissed her forehead.
“Alright,” she said letting exhaustion take over and settling into a relaxed sleep after hearing the baby was fine.
Around nine in the night Steve was awaken by Dr. Burke who had come to check on Mia. Mia had been awake for over an hour already and she had just been staring at Steve the whole time. He must have been really tired for him not to feel her intense stare.
“How are you feeling Mia?” the doctor asked as she flipped her chart open and began taking notes while studying the monitors.
“Much better doctor,” she replied honestly.
“That’s good to hear. That was some scare you gave us earlier. One minute more and we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now.”
“How is she doing now doctor?” they heard Steve ask as he stood up and crossed his arms.
“Everything looks normal now. Looks like you’re good to go home but under strict orders of rest for a whole week. I want to see you again in a week and we’ll see if we can let you go back to your normal routine, of course in your condition field work is out of question. I’ll just go sign your discharge papers and let you go home.”
“You heard the doctor Mia, rest. for a whole week,” Steve said as the doctor left.
“Yes, Steve, I know. As long as it helps my baby keep safe I’ll do everything I can.”
“Our baby,” he said leaning down and kissing her. “Let me grab your clothes so you can get dressed and we can get out of here.”
Mia smiled. She was glad that Steve was happy about the baby. She got dressed with the help of Steve and once she was ready a nurse came back with her release papers and a wheelchair because it was a rule that every patient had to leave the hospital in one to which Mia simply rolled her eyes.
Steve brought his truck to the entrance, which Danny had dropped off when Savi came to bring Mia extra clothes. He lifted her up and sat her on the passenger seat. He was also about to buckle her in but Mia protested.
“Okay that’s enough. I can do that on my own, I’m not immobile,” Mia complained.
“Alright, alright,” he said as he closed the door and went around getting into the driver’s seat.
“Steve I want you to take me to my apartment,” she said looking at him while he started the car.
“I thought you might want to stay with me. You know with it being closer to headquarters and my mom there,” he said looking at her.
“My apartment is not that far either and I would feel more comfortable there,” she said as she turned to look out the window while Steve took off.
“Alright,” Steve said as he looked straight ahead, “but soon we’re going to have to make some decisions Mia. Important decisions regarding us and the baby because I am going to be there, involved in every part of its life.”
“Yeah, well we’ll worry about that when the time comes.”
Steve let it go for now because he didn’t want upset her any more. They still had to talk about her father but that would have to wait and he was surprised she was even speaking to him. The man was still on the island staying in a hotel close to the office but he was told to not get anywhere near Mia.
On the ride home Mia had fallen asleep so Steve decided to make a stop at his house to pack a bag to take to Mia’s apartment. He wasn’t going to leave her there alone. She needed him even if she hadn’t asked and he was going to be there for her.
When they arrived at her apartment, Steve didn’t have the heart to wake up Mia so he decided to carry her. Once inside the apartment, he went to lay her down on her bed and then he put his bag inside her walk-in closet. He went to make her something light to eat leaving the door slightly open so he would be able to hear her in case she woke up. While he waited for the soup he found in a can to heat up, he sent a message to everyone in his team and Savanna to tell them Mia and the baby were doing fine and she was already resting in her apartment.
A few minutes later Steve heard the shower start and he figured that it was probably Mia. Checking the clock on top of the stove, he saw it read 10:30 PM. When he saw the soup begin to boil he served two bowls, one for Mia and the other one for him. Placing them on a tray with two glasses of water and the pills the doctor had given Mia, he walked back to her room as she walked out of the restroom wrapped in only a towel.
“Hey I brought you something to eat and your pills,” Steve told her as he placed the tray on one of the night stands.
“Thanks but I’m not really hungry,” she said as she dressed into a light blue silk camisole and towel dried her hair.
“You have to eat Mia. It’s just something light so you can take your pills,” he said as he sat on the bed and observed her movements. “By the way, you should be in bed resting.”
“I know, I just felt really dirty and decided to take a quick shower,” she said with a small pout as she went and sat on Steve’s lap, wrapping her arms around his neck and Steve wrapped his around her waist.
“Alright, but no more getting up. If you need something you tell me and I’ll get for you. Now eat your soup. It’s getting cold,” he told her as he tried moving her towards the bed.
Mia sighed as she stood and got into the bed leaning against the headboard. Steve handed her a bowl of chicken soup and they both ate in silence at first until Mia began speaking.
“You know, when I first found out I was pregnant at Savanna’s house, neither one of us could believe it,” she began.
“Why not?” he asked giving her a questioning look.
“Well for starters, I couldn’t ever have kids again and second because we’ve only just been together for a little over a month.”
Steve looked at Mia with confusion written on his face as he asked her, “Why couldn’t you have kids?”
Mia sighed as she placed the half empty bowl on the night stand and got ready to tell him about her accident. “The day I lost the baby, I had fallen down the stairs in my old house. The doctor that saw me that day said that due to the fall and hard hit I took, I wasn’t going to be able to conceive anymore,” she said as she wiped the tears that threatened to fall from her eyes with the palm of her eyes. “Savanna was there that day so when the pregnancy test read positive I didn’t want to tell you anything until I was positive. Then today the doctor finally confirmed it and I couldn’t wait to tell you but I was afraid of how you were going to react.”
Steve put down his empty bowl as he moved to sit next to Mia and embraced her. “You had nothing to be afraid of. When the doctor told me you were pregnant I thought it was some kind of mistake but then she said there was no mistake, that you were very pregnant,” he said with a small laugh. “You have no idea how happy that made me because now we’ll have a second chance to do things right, to be parents and it’s even better because you’re going to be the mother of my child, our child.” Steve kissed the top of her head. “I love you Mia and I’m always going to be here for you and our children.”
“Children?” she asked in a laugh as she turned to look up at him.
“Yeah, because we’ll definitely have more,” he stated.
“Yeah because you’re not the one carrying them inside you,” she said in a sarcastic tone.
“But I’ll help take care of them and raise them.”
“Let’s just have this one first and then we’ll see.”
Steve just smiled and hugged Mia closer to him. “What did the doctor say about you not being able to have babies?”
“That’s the weird thing because she didn’t find any problems with me and me being pregnant obviously shows that I can conceive.”
“Yeah that’s definitely weird. Either the doctor back then lied or got his results mixed up. Then again there’s also the probability that I’m that good at making babies,” he said smugly earning him a punch on the chest.
“Hey what was that for?” he asked in between laughter.
“You’re sick McGarret, but I still love you,” she said as she kissed him licking his lips, asking for entrance, which Steve gladly accepted. Mia pulled Steve down with her on the mattress so she was lying on the bottom and he was half on her and half on the mattress. Mia wrapped her left leg around him wanting to bring him closer to her. Feeling his growing bulge on her thigh, Mia went to undo his belt but Steve halted her plans as he firmly grabbed her hands with one of his strong hands.
“I want to feel you inside me Steve,” she whispered against his lips as she wriggled around.
Steve dropped his head on her side and with a muffled voice he said, “I want to make love to you too but we can’t.”
“Why not?” she complained.
Steve raised his head to look at her. “Did you already forget what happened today?”
“The doctor already said I’m fine.”
“Yeah and she also said you needed to rest.”
“Arrgh, you’re so frustrating Steve,” she argued as she pushed him off her and stood up to tie her still damp hair in a bun.
“Come on Mia, don’t get mad. I’m just worried about you and I don’t want to hurt you.”
Mia ignored him as she went to her side of the bed and got in under the covers giving her back to him. She was annoyed at Steve for leaving her sexually frustrated. Now he worried about being a gentleman, perfect timing, she thought sarcastically.
Steve sighed as he stood up and grabbed the tray with the bowls leaving Mia’s pills and glass of water. He knew he’d have to be extra patient with Mia now that she was pregnant and would experience all the different mood swings possible. “Don’t forget to take your pills,” he told her before he went to take everything to the kitchen.
Mia waited until she heard Steve leave the room and sat up to take her pills. Then she lay back down and pretended to be sleeping when Steve came back into the room. She felt him move around the room until she heard the shower running. The sound of the shower was lulling her to sleep that she didn’t hear when Steve came back into the room until she felt him wrap his arms around her and spooned her.
“Are you asleep?” he whispered.
“I was getting there,” she mumbled back.
“I love you Mia and I don’t want you to be mad at me.”
“I’m not mad,” she whispered. “I’m just really horny and you won’t do anything about it,” she said with a pout.
She felt the bed shake and knew Steve was quietly laughing. She turned around to face him and said, “I don’t find this the least bit comical Steven.”
“I’m sorry. You’re right, it’s not funny, but we have to wait to see what the doctor says.”
Mia rolled her eyes and then moved closer to Steve. She gave him a small kiss on the lips and said, “Goodnight babe.”
The next morning Steve woke up around seven in the morning with Mia’s legs entangled with his and her head on his chest. He gently moved her away from him, trying not to wake her up in the process. He didn’t bother putting any clothes on so just like that, wearing only boxer briefs, he went to the kitchen to put on the coffee. Steve needed his morning caffeine to be able to think more clearly. The fresh smell of coffee filled his nostrils as he sat on the kitchen island waiting for it to be ready. Five minutes later Steve heard hurried movements in the room so he went to see what was going on. When he walked into the room he instantly heard the gagging coming from inside the bathroom in Mia’s room. Walking to the door he knocked lightly as he asked Mia if she was okay. His response was more gagging and as he tried opening the door he noticed Mia had locked the door.
“Mia, open the door,” he told her. He heard a flush of the toilet and then the water faucet turned on. A few minutes later Mia opened the door that Steve was about to kick open.
“How are you feeling?” he asked taking in her pale complexion as he helped her back into bed.
“Awful, please get rid of that smell. I can’t stand the smell of coffee right now,” she begged him as she lied down with her eyes closed.
“I’m sorry. I’ll open the windows to let it air out,” he told her as he went back into the kitchen to turn off the coffee maker and open the windows.
On his way back to the room he grabbed some salty crackers to help settle her stomach. “Here I brought you these. Try some, they might help you with the nausea,” he offered as he sat on the edge of the bed and looked at her.
Mia sat up slowly as she took the crackers and thanked him for them. “Aren’t you supposed to be getting ready for work?”
“I’m not going in today. I told Danny that unless I was really needed, I was going to take the day off to help you around.”
“Steve I’m fine on my own. There’s not much to do here plus the doctor never said I couldn’t get up to grab something to eat or use the bathroom.”
“She specifically said rest and when someone says rest it means lying down in bed resting, not doing anything else.”
“That’s insane. I’ll go crazy. I can only watch so much TV or read till my eyes dry from so many words and then you’ll get bored from not doing anything but staring at the wall or at me the whole day.”
“Staring at you isn’t so bad. In fact, it’s not bad at all,” he said with a smile.
“Well as much as I love it when you look at me we’ll end up driving each other crazy if you decide to stay here the whole week. So I’ll concede with you staying today but just today. Promise me you’ll go back tomorrow,” she said.
“The day is barely starting and you’re already trying to get rid of me. I can’t imagine what it’s going to be like when the baby is here and we’ll have to live together,” he said as he kissed her forehead.
“Yeah well it’s still too early to be thinking about that. We still have time,” she said.
“Babe,” he said when he noticed she closed her eyes.
“Hmm?” she replied not bothering to open her eyes.
“Why every time that I mention something about the future that involves us together with our child you seem to shut down and just dodge the topic by saying that we’ll worry about it when the time comes. We need to start thinking about our future. It’s not just us anymore,” he said as he placed his hand on her still flat stomach.
“I know I just don’t want to talk about that right now. I want to wait a while before we make any decisions,” she said as she placed a hand on top of his opening her eyes to look at him.
“Why do you want to wait?”
“I just do. Can we please just drop the subject for now?” she gently asked him as she removed her hand from his and tucked herself in the blankets signaling the conversation was over.
“Alright, I’ll let you rest for now but there are other things we have to talk about. I’ll be in the living room making some calls,” he said as he stood and went to dress in sweats and one of his Navy t-shirt before leaving the room.
When she heard Steve leave the room Mia opened her eyes and let the tears fall down. She knew she had to talk to Steve, but she was terrified. She was scared of the same story repeating itself, of losing her baby, and losing Steve. That’s why she didn’t want to make any plans just yet but she knew she couldn’t hold Steve off for long. With all these thoughts running through her head, Mia eventually fell asleep once again.
Steve made himself a sandwich for breakfast and cut some fresh fruit for Mia so she could eat when she woke up. Then he went to sit on the couch and called Danny.
“Hey Steve, how’s Mia?” he heard Danny ask.
“She’s better now, sleeping after a bout of morning sickness. I don’t think I’ll be allowed to drink coffee any time soon. Thanks for asking,” he responded.
“Glad to hear she’s doing okay but let me tell you my friend, this is just the beginning. Eight more months of mood swings, cravings, peeing every five minutes. You name it,” Danny said.
“Gee thanks Danny but I think I can handle it,” he said very sure he could take whatever Mia went through during the pregnancy. “But I called to see how things are over there.”
“Everything is good around here. Don’t worry about it.”
“Yeah I’ll probably be back tomorrow. Mia doesn’t really want me around here; she says we’ll drive each other crazy.”
Danny laughed. “And this is just the beginning, can’t imagine what’s going to happen when you two live together.”
“Hey I’m not bad to live with,” he defended.
“Yeah with all those Army rules, you’re definitely not.”
“Navy, Danny, I’m in the Navy for the millionth time,” Steve replied rolling his eyes even though Danny couldn’t see him. “I’m sure Mia will have no problem with them.”
Danny snorted, “Seriously Steven? She’s a woman for crying out loud, and a pregnant one! Women need to take their time getting ready, showering, and I’m not talking about two minute showers. They need to know where everything is and if they don’t like where it’s at then they’ll start moving everything around and when you least expect it, your home will be completely transformed. Then when the baby comes, there will be toys, diapers, blankets everywhere and you, Steven, will have to learn to deal with it.”
“Danny I thought you were my friend, man. Aren’t friends supposed to give each other moral support and encouragement?”
“Hey I’m just telling you the truth so it doesn’t take you by surprise.”
“Yeah, yeah, hey any word on Peter?” Steve asked changing the subject.
“He’s still on the island and the cops we put on his tail said there hasn’t been any movement so he’s still in his hotel room but he did call once to ask about Mia.”
“Alright, thanks for the update. Call me if anything comes up.”
“Will do, later,” Danny said.
Steve hung up the phone and just sat there on the couch staring at nothing when he felt two arms wrap around his neck and then, “See anything interesting?” she whispered causing him to jump.
“Babe I’m worried about you, you’re spidey senses seem to be failing you,” Mia said as she came around the couch and sat next to him with her feet tucked under her and her arms around his neck as she massaged the spot where his hairline in the back of his head started.
“I think it’s you that has me like that,” he said with a smile as he turned slightly to her and placed one hand on her bare thigh. “What are you doing out of bed?”
“It wore me out. I’m tired of lying down and sleeping. Plus I’m hungry,” she said giving him a small pout.
Steve smiled and leaned in to kiss her. “I made you a plate of fresh fruit. I don’t know what you can or can’t tolerate right now so we’ll start with something simple and then we’ll go from there. We already figured coffee is off the list.”
Mia found that sweet, the fact the he took the time to think over what might or might not upset her stomach. “Do you have any idea how much I love you,” she said as she pulled him closer to her and planted a big hot kiss on his lips. “You’re always so thoughtful.”
“Yeah, well that’s because I love you so much too,” he said giving her another kiss and getting up to go get her plate before she got any other ideas.
“Have you talked to your mom?” she asked as she saw him move around in her kitchen.
“No, haven’t come around to doing that just yet.”
“Are you going to tell her about the baby?” she asked as he handed her the plate with a fork and placed a glass of orange juice on the coffee table.
“Yeah, is that okay with you?” he asked sitting down next to her facing her with one hand on the back of the couch.
“You know I don’t mind. I love your mom,” she told him with a smile.
Steve returned the smile and nodded at her. “How are you feeling now?”
“Much better, thank you. It’s not that bad, mainly it’s just nausea,” she said. “On the way back to the office Savi told me that not everyone gets morning sickness as bad as others and some just don’t get it at all.”
“We really have to get informed on this whole pregnancy thing, like what to expect and stuff like that,” he told her taking in the fact that her appetite was back and being thankful for it. “How far along were you in your last pregnancy?”
Mia lowered her eyes and looked at her plate, “Four months but the morning sickness was worse.”
“I know you don’t want to talk about it, but how did you fall from the stairs? I mean you were always very careful watching your step. Did you slip or trip on something?” he asked her.
Mia couldn’t stop the tears as she answered him, “It was an accident Steve. Can’t we just leave it like that, please?”
Steve sighed as he removed the plate from her and hugged her close to him. “I’m sorry babe; I didn’t mean to upset you again.”
“I just don’t like thinking about it and it’s already in the past.”
Somehow I feel like what you need to do is really talk about it and let it all out so we can really move forward, he thought feeling that something from that accident was holding them back and if Mia didn’t talk to him he didn’t know what he could do to help her.