Time Heals All Wounds
Kono drove Mia to the hospital in complete silence. When Kono tried to start a conversation Mia flat out told Kono she did not want to talk. Kono understood where Mia was coming from but at the same time she did not think leaving Steve was the right choice. Those two loved each other and their love had to be stronger than anything. They had been through so much together and Sophie’s abduction was just one more bump on the road. Mia would see that once the whole trauma had passed, she had to.
“Thank you for bringing me to have Sophie looked at but you don’t have to stay,” Mia said plainly when Kono stopped at the emergency entrance of the hospital.
“I’m just going to park the car and I’ll join you,” Kono said as she smiled warmly at Mia. “We’re ohana, Mia, and I’m not leaving you alone.”
Mia’s heart softened a bit at Kono’s words. Despite everything, Kono was a good person and Mia shouldn’t be taking out her feelings on the woman who was just trying to help. Mia nodded before getting off the car and grabbing Sophie.
“Well Mrs. McGarrett, your daughter seems to be in perfect condition,” the doctor who had examined Sophie for the past hour said as she walked back into the private room Sophie was in.
Mia, who had been lying on the hospital bed with Sophie in her arms, sat up as soon as she saw the doctor walk in. “Are you positive? She’s absolutely fine?”
“Of course. Sophie is a strong and healthy little girl,” the doctor said smiling at Mia and reassuring her Sophie was not harmed in any way.
Mia breathed a sigh of relief. She turned to look down at the small body sleeping on the bed and couldn’t stop the tears that fell from her eyes. Her daughter was safe and that was all that mattered. She turned her head to look at Kono, who had been standing at the far corner of the room, and gave her a relived smile.
“I’m going to go ahead and sign the release papers so you two can go home,” the doctor informed Mia before turning around intent on walking out of the room but she collided with a hard body. “Oh I’m sorry.” She looked up to meet a pair of stormy blue eyes.
“I’m looking for my daughter,” he said roughly as he focused his gaze on the woman standing next to the bed staring right back at him.
“I’m sorry, you are?” the doctor asked not bothering to move from Steve’s path.
Steve turned his attention to the petite doctor standing in front of him. “Commander Steve McGarrett, Sophie McGarrett’s father.”
“I see,” the doctor said as she finally stepped aside to let Steve walk into the room. “I was just telling Mrs. McGarrett that the patient is fine. There’s nothing to worry about. I was actually on my way to sign the release forms so I’ll leave you alone for a moment.”
When the doctor finally left them alone, Steve walked further into the room and stopped on the opposite side of Sophie’s bed across from Mia. He bent down and placed a small kiss on Sophie’s forehead and thanked God she was safe and alive. He couldn’t even begin to imagine what he would have done if something else had been the outcome. Now as he watched the small sleeping person on the bed he felt blessed that nothing else had happened to her.
Unbeknownst to him or Mia, Kono silently walked out of the room to give the pair some privacy.
A few minutes later, Steve brought his gaze up and saw Mia standing by the window looking outside. “Mia,” he began.
“You’ve seen your daughter,” she said interrupting whatever Steve was about to say. “She’s in good health. There’s nothing more for you here. I think you should go now.”
“Excuse me?” an astonished Steve asked as he walked closer to Mia’s position.
Mia turned to look at Steve with a blank expression. There was nothing that would show what she was feeling, just an emptiness Steve had never witnessed. “I want you to leave.”
“You want me to leave?” Steve asked dumbly still confused about Mia’s request. “You want me to leave when my daughter is lying on a hospital bed after being kidnapped. You can’t possibly be serious.”
“You already saw for yourself that Sophie is fine, so yes, I am dead serious, Steve,” Mia responded firmly.
Steve shook his head in disbelief. “I am not leaving, Mia. You are not going to keep me from seeing my daughter so think again before you ask me to do that.”
“Don’t make this complicated Steve because you will lose,” Mia said as she walked to stand closer to Steve. “Sophie is not safe around you and I will do whatever it takes to keep my daughter safe even if it means keeping her away from you.”
Steve couldn’t believe what he was hearing. What happened to his Mia and who was this woman standing in front of him. Steve was about to respond to Mia but the doctor walked in stopping any further comments Steve was about to make.
“Alright, everything is settled. Sophie can go home now,” the doctor informed as she handed Mia the release forms. “Any questions?”
“No, thank you for everything,” Mia said kindly, a huge contrast to the hostility towards Steve.
The doctor smiled kindly and nodded before walking out of the room.
Mia walked to the bed and carried Sophie. Sophie stirred from the movement but she quickly settled her head on the crook of Mia’s neck.
Steve followed Mia’s every movement trying to defuse the anger he felt. He didn’t want to get into an argument here of all places, especially with their daughter in the room but Mia was threading on thin ice. “Where are you taking Sophie?”
“That is none of your concern,” Mia replied coldly as she made her way out of the room with Steve hot on her heels.
“You’re kidding,” Steve bit back in a harsh whisper as he followed closely behind Mia. “I swear Mia you don’t want to tempt me because the one who will end up losing is you. I can’t even believe were even looking at this as a win/lose situation. You have to think about Sophie.”
They reached the elevator just as an elderly woman was walking out of it and both waited until the doors closed to turn to face each other. “That is exactly what I’m doing, thinking about Sophie and what’s best for her.”
“You’re being selfish,” Steve threw back. “You know none of this is my fault.”
“Oh you don’t want to get me started on that,” Mia replied, a hint of warning on her tone.
The elevator arrived at the lobby and Mia hurried across it towards the automatic doors and into the warm night of Hawaii. Steve was not far behind. He was not done talking and he would make sure he knew where Mia was taking his daughter.
“At least tell me where you’re going to be staying. We can talk when we are both calmed down but you will not keep me from my daughter.”
Mia stopped in front of the car Kono had pulled up to the entrance and faced Steve. “I’ll be staying with Savannah,” she finally said. “At least until I find my own place but I don’t want you anywhere near Savannah’s house. Am I clear, Steve?”
“There’s only one thing clear right now. I will see my daughter whether you like it or not,” Steve said with finality before placing a quick kiss on top of Sophie’s head and walking away.
Steve arrived at headquarters fuming. He strode into his office ignoring the curious looks from Chin and Danny. He was seeing red, literally. Mia was being irrational. There was nothing more she had to fear. WoFat was in a maximum security prison and her mother was dead. Everything could finally go back to normal but Mia had thrown him for a loop. He never imagined she would actually want to put an end to what they had after everything they had gone through. Steve stopped pacing the length of his office and stopped in front of his desk. He slammed his fist on his desk in frustration just as Danny walked in.
“I really don’t want to talk to anyone, Danny,” Steve bit out as he stood straight and ran a hand over his mouth.
“I just want you to know you’re not alone, Steve,” Danny said from where he stood by the closed door with his hands in his pockets. “Give her a few days to cool off. I’m sure she didn’t mean it. Mia is just terrified with everything that happened.”
“And I’m not?” Steve retorted. “I felt like a part of me was ripped off when that bastard took my daughter. Gosh Danny, for a moment I thought I would never see her again and when I finally have her in my arms, her mother, the woman I love takes her away from me. Why? Because she blames me for everything.”
“I don’t think Mia blames you-”
“Stop, just stop right there,” Steve shot back angrily. “Stop defending her or making up excuses for Mia. You and I knew this was going to happen sooner or later. It was just a matter of time and Sophie’s kidnapping was the last straw.”
Danny sighed and raised a hand in peace offering. “Okay, just promise me you will calm down before you go looking for her. Give yourself and Mia enough time to calm down so you can talk like two rational adults.”
“Time? I’m done wasting time, Danny.”
Mia walked out of the bedroom where she had just put Sophie down to find Savi leaning against the wall waiting for Mia. Figures. Mia knew Savannah would want to talk but Mia was exhausted and the last thing she wanted to do was talk. “I really don’t feel like talking, Savi.”
“Too bad because that is exactly what we are going to do.” Savannah was not mad at her friend, she was worried. Mia was not being her usual self and keeping Sophie from Steve was crazy. The man loved his daughter.
“I’m serious, Savi. I’m exhausted and I feel like my head is about to explode.” Mia really did feel bad. The pounding she felt earlier in the day was returning full force and all she wanted to do was curl in a bed and sleep for a long time.
“Well if you would have listened and stayed in the hospital, resting, you wouldn’t feel like this,” Savannah said as she noticed her friend really did look pale.
“I was not going to sit back and do nothing while my daughter was missing,” Mia replied. “I just want to rest for a few hours. I promise we’ll talk after.”
Savannah bit her lip to stop her from saying something else and simply nodded. “Fine, but we will talk, Mia. Go on, I’ll bring you something for the pain.”
Mia nodded and walked back into the room her daughter was sleeping in. She walked to the bed and kissed her daughter’s forehead before walking to the couch by the window and laying down. The events from today were finally catching up to her and Mia was feeling so many different emotions all at once. She could not believe she had come close to losing her daughter in the hands of her own mother and to top it off, she had killed her mother.
Mia woke up exactly where she had laid down the night before, on the couch. She vaguely remembered Savi coming in with some painkillers and offering something to eat but Mia had kindly declined the offer. Now as she sat up on the couch and stretched her muscles, she turned to look at the bed where Sophie was sleeping only to find the bed empty and already made. Mia rushed to the bed, the panic rising with every step she took closer to the bed.
“Relax, Sophie is downstairs with Kelly,” Savi said from somewhere behind Mia. “I figured you needed to rest.”
Mia turned in the direction of her friend’s voice and found her standing by the door leading to an adjoining bathroom. Mia couldn’t believe she had slept through Sophie’s wakening. She was a trained official who would wake up at the minimal amount of noise. Her thoughts might have been written on her face because next thing she knew Savi was placing a comforting hand on her arm.
“Hey, it’s okay,” Savi said softly. “You were exhausted, you are, and Sophie is safe in this house.”
“I can’t believe I slept through the noise. I’m trained at this. How can I protect my own daughter when I can’t even hear when she wakes up,” Mia stated angrier at herself than at the situation.
“Come on Mia don’t be so hard on yourself. Why don’t you take a bath and try to relax. I put fresh towels in the bathroom and left you some extra clothes. We’ll figure out the rest later.” Savannah watched the storm in her best friend’s eyes and could see the pain she was going through. Maybe it wasn’t physical pain as much as it was yesterday, but it definitely was emotional pain. “I’ll be downstairs with the girls.”
Mia nodded and watched as Savi left the room. She then walked into the adjoining bathroom where Savi was kind enough to have already filled the bathtub. Mia climbed in and laid her head back, facing the ceiling and letting the events of the past few months come flooding back.
So much had happened in such a short amount of time Mia didn’t know which way was up or down anymore. All she knew was that she wanted the pain to go away. Mia wanted a normal life, one where she did not have to worry about looking over her shoulder. Above all, she wanted a normal and safe life for her daughter. Mia felt the burning in the back of her eyes. She brought her legs close to her chest and let the tears fall free. Why couldn’t she be happy for once? Why couldn’t she have a normal life?
Mia walked downstairs an hour later feeling a bit more refreshed but still somewhat tired. It would take a couple of goodnights sleep before Mia could feel like herself, if she ever did reach that point. She followed the voices to the room Savannah had set up as a play room for Kelly and found the girls playing while Savi kept busy on her laptop.
“Hey, you feeling better?” Savi asked looking up from the laptop.
Mia nodded. “Yeah,” she said as she continued to watch the girls play.
Savi followed Mia’s gaze and smiled at the sight of the girls playing together. “They get along really well. It’s like I’m seeing us when we were younger,” Savi commiserated. Turning to look at Mia, she asked, “Do you plan on giving Sophie a sister, or perhaps a brother? I’m sure Sophie would be delighted.”
“I don’t think I’ll be having more kids any time soon and you know that,” Mia stated flatly as she looked at Savi.
“Well if you would stop being so stubborn, you and Steve could be planning your next child,” Savi replied.
“Steve and I are done, Savannah. He is the last man I would want to have another child with. I think having one child in constant danger because of his past is more than enough.” Mia gave Savi a pointed look before leaving the room, trying to avoid an argument.
Savannah left the girls with the nanny, who had walked in shortly after Mia marched out of the room, and went after Mia. She found Mia in the kitchen grabbing a plate of fruit the housekeeper had prepared for Mia earlier and a bottle of water. Savi knew Mia was ignoring her when Mia continued to walk towards the patio but Savi was not giving up. She followed Mia and sat across from her on the patio dining table. “We’re going to have this conversation sooner or later, Mia,” Savi pointed out.
Mia finished chewing on the piece of melon in her mouth and swallowed before replying. “I prefer later.”
“Come on Mia, talk to me. Why are you doing this? You need to think about Sophie,” Savannah said softly.
Mia put her fork down, pushed the plate away, and leaned her elbows on the table. “That is exactly what I am doing.”
“If that were true you wouldn’t separate her from her father. You’re being completely irrational and selfish. None of this is Steve’s fault and you know it.” Savannah was trying to push Mia’s buttons to get her to open up and find what the real problem was.
“I’m being irrational?” Mia asked bitterly. “Trying to keep my daughter out of danger is being irrational? You know damn well all of this started with Steve’s family past and Steve chose to continue with it. Everyone warned him to stop but he wanted answers. It didn’t matter who got hurt in the process, all Steve wanted was answers! So if you want to talk about being irrational and selfish talk to him!” By the time Mia was done making her point she was on her feet glowering down at Savannah. “Besides, whose side are you on?”
Savannah stood up to be at eye level with Mia. “This is not about taking sides, Mia. I love you both and I hate seeing everything that you’re both going through. You love Steve and he loves you. Why can’t you two talk about this like the mature adults that you both are?”
“I love Steve, Savi, there’s no doubt about it but this goes beyond my love for him. My daughter was kidnapped and held at gunpoint. Do you have any idea how terrifying it was to witness that? It got to the point where I had to kill my own mother!” Mia reached her breaking point. She had tried to block the image of her mother pointing a gun at Sophie and Mia pulling the trigger but it was too much to hold in. She dropped back on the chair and sobbed uncontrollably. “Steve shouldn’t have gotten involved with his family’s past.”
Savi walked around the table, pulled a chair close to Mia, and wrapped her arms around her. “Steve was trying to solve his parents’ murder and things got out of his control. You can’t blame him for the things WoFat or your mother did.”
Mia calmed down a bit and pulled back from Savi’s hold. “He chose to continue with this even after his mother turned up alive.”
“Just like you chose to be with him and marry him after knowing there was someone who had a personal vendetta against his family.”
“That was before Sophie,” Mia shot back.
“Sophie was on the way when you accepted his marriage proposal. Face it Mia, you knew the risks of being with Steve even before you gave each other a second chance.” Savi knew she was cornering Mia but she had to make her see the mistake she was making.
“Why are you taking his side, Savi?” Mia asked clearly avoiding Savi’s point. “I was your friend first.”
Savannah sighed before standing up and walking to stand behind the chair she had previously occupied. “You know I’ll always have your back but as your friend I have to try and make you see the huge mistake you’re making. What are you going to do Mia? Tell me what exactly your plans are.”
Mia took a deep breath and faced Savannah. “I’m filing for divorce,” Mia stated.
“Are you 100% positive about this?” Savi asked, raising an eyebrow in question.
Mia nodded without hesitation.
“What about Sophie?” Savannah asked.
Mia stood up and faced the horizon, away from her best friend’s questioning eyes. “I’m going to file for custody, sole legal custody of Sophie.”
This was exactly what Savannah had feared. If Mia did not think this thoroughly before doing what she just said, things were bound to get messy. “Mia, Steve will not give up his parenting rights, you know it better than anyone. Besides, no judge in their right mind would give you full custody. The best you can hope for is shared. Steve was a single parent for a whole year, a whole year Mia. You’ve been back in Sophie’s life for just a few months. Don’t expect to come out of this victorious.”
“I can prove Sophie is not safe around Steve. Her kidnapping is a big part of the evidence,” Mia said stubbornly.
“In that case, every cop’s child would not be safe around them. You’re FBI Mia, you think Sophie is any safer with you? Think about all the cases you’ve had. Don’t you think at least half of those you put behind bars want revenge?”
“I’m turning in my badge,” Mia confessed taking Savi completely by surprise. “I don’t want this life any more. I want to start over, for Sophie.”
Savannah shook her head. “Please don’t do something you’ll end up regretting.”
“The only thing I will end up regretting is not doing everything I could to keep my daughter safe.”
“I still think you’re making big mistake, Mia, but I know you’ve made up your mind. Nothing I say or do will make you change that but can I ask you to do something?”
“What is it?” Mia asked wearily.
“Talk to Steve,” Savi said. Savi noticed Mia was ready to protest but Savannah raised a hand to stop her. “Steve deserves to know why you’re leaving him. After everything you both have been through it’s the least you can do before you hit him with the divorce papers. He deserves the truth.”
“I can’t promise you anything but I will think about it.”
Mia sat in her car outside the governor’s office where she had just turned in her letter her resignation and her badge. She had taken the governor completely by surprise but there was no turning back. The governor had even offered an alternative, working for him exclusively but Mia had kindly refused. Her decision was final.
Now Mia sat in her car thinking about the fact that she had to find a place for herself and Sophie. She had her home but Danny was renting it and she wouldn’t kick him out. Besides, that was the last place Mia wanted to return to. That place held too many bad memories for her, memories of her mother.
Mia decided not to let her mind wonder in that direction and forced herself to turn on the car and drive away. Savannah had offered to watch Sophie while Mia got her things done. Savi said she would take the girls out shopping and keep them entertained. Mia decided to use the time to go apartment hunting.